24 February 2011

Late Winter Pick-Me Up, Dominican style

As you can imagine, sitting in front of your computer screen and books makes a shitty reading week. Especially when you wish you were miles away on a hot beach or something...

Sosua, D.R

To combat these winter/reading week blahs, I dug up some pictures from the not too distant past. So get comfy, grab a mango-coconut smoothie with fresh pineapple garnish, and enjoy some of my memories from Puerto Plata (Domincan Republic) this January...

Getting some tanning in...


The gorgeous Melissa...
Sosua's Boys in Blue


Lounging by one of the pools
This hammock completely had our name all over it.

Bob, beach, beverage = one love

Local landscape...


Motorcycle ride: what better way to take in the
local sights?
"Cheese!"
Chasing waves... Or are the chasing us?


Riding purty.
Riding durtay!
Pre-tsunami like mud
We luh the kids!
"Its all good in Sosua!"
local shopping, Sosua Beach


Shopping, shopping, shopping!

Nightly entertainment. If you look hard enough you
canspot my Dominican love... If only I could
rememberhis name... :$

THATS ALL FOLKS! UNTIL NEXT TIME!

23 February 2011

"Against the Wall": William Parry & the Art of Resistance

"It’s a means of communicating about injustice. It’s one means of getting a message across. The more people who learn about Israel’s crimes, the more who challenge the West’s blind backing of Israel – the quicker Israel’s incredibly sophisticated military machine will be undermined. The spray can is part of the spectrum of other creative, non-violent ways being undertaken by civil society to raise awareness, challenge historical narratives and overcome injustice..."
- William Parry 



Is the spray can mightier than the sword?



British photojournalist William Parry thinks so. He's the author of Against the Wall: The Art of Resistance in Palestine. Parry travelled extensively throughout the West Bank & Occupied Territories collecting photos of the artwork that covers the wall dividing the region from Israel.  Being careful to include a thought-provoking variety of images and graffiti, he contrasts each image with a vignette of a Palestinian community that lives with the daily reality of the ugly "security" wall and all that it represents.
The book features artwork from Banksy, Ron English, Blu and Palestinian artists and activists.


Here are some of the images from the wall, which has been recently called "the largest protest banner in the world":









Here's William Parry in a BBC interview from a few years back speaking on the book and some of the artwork on the wall (as pictured above)...




William Parry will be in Canada next month for a serious of lectures called Against the Wall: The Art of Resistance in Palestine.
go to www.cjpme.org/ for more info.





Die Hard: Lego Style

If you're like me and have the fortune of having Reading Week (a.k.a those 5 days your university gives you in February to "catch up on workload" and "study") this week, then you might be sitting at home spending unhealthy amounts of time in front of your computer/TV screen. Actually, thats exactly what I've been doing for the most part.
Anyway, I've got the perfect way to spend 3 minutes or more of your time.

Check out this video,
"Die Hard: Lego Style"
by Arash Khoshnazar

Before you watch this, keep in mind that the entire video was shot using a technique called stop-motion (or stop-action). Basically, the little Lego dudes were manipulated into poses for individual photo frames, and then the frames were edited into a sequence to make it look like fluid movement...
That's right, every movement you see is a series of frames positioned that way.



Dope, huh?
 Well the short was submitted to Edward Jameson's "Done in 60 Seconds" Competition. The film is one of 20 that made it, with over hundreds of hopefuls submitting their work.

If you thought that was as cool as I did, PLEASE VOTE BY CLICKING HERE and checking "Die Hard". You can vote as much as you want, but it ends in 2 days!!

20 February 2011

Marks on a S.E.L.F

"My body is a journal in a way. It's like what sailors used to do, where every tattoo meant something, a specific time in your life when you make a mark on yourself, whether you do it yourself with a knife or with a professional tattoo artist"
- Johnny Depp




*My work of art in the making...

Trouble in paradise...




You ever look at a million shattered pieces of glass and think about how much that epitomizes your life?

How each jaggedly tempting shard represents a piece of your life, once harmoniously, seamlessly melded together to paint the perfect picture, yet fragile enough to threaten to fall apart at the slightest imbalance?

They say if you break a mirror, you will suffer the illfortune of 7 years. But what's to be said about the crushing of glass? Will you then be doomed to live 7-years-to-life of sharply disecting components?

Glass is ever so congruent to the lives we lead- millions of tiny imperfect particles, invisible to the naked eye. Visually they exist together to give the illusion of a perfectly smooth, excitingly shiny surface. Like glass, we come to life out of the most chaotic scenarios- created under a pressure and heat that later becomes unbearable. In fact, the slightest tension from any direction threatens to break us into a million tiny shards...

How many of us prevail through our day-to-day exsistence, emitting a perfectly smooth, deceivingly-seamless shiny glimmer? Beneath that false shine lay a million secrets, flaws, insecurities, regrets- imperfectionous shards threatening to crack and reveal themselves for what they are...

10 February 2011

For love of the headband

Damn, I've worn a lot of headbands in my day. I guess I'm perpetually channelling my inner Pocahauntas...





the CHRONICles: rappers luh some whacky tobaccy

"Ayo, I smoke like a chim-in-ney
Matta fact I, smoke like a gun
When a killa see his enemy
I smoke like Bob Marley did
Add to that, that I smoke like the Hippies did back in the 70's..."
- Styles P. ("I Get High (Good Times)"



  



Dr. Norman Finkelstein: Radical Intellectual

He's been pegged as not just an "anti-Semite", but a "self-hating Jew". Some have even gone so far as to call him "an enabler of terrorism". But one person I've looked up to and respected greatly, and informed myself about at lengths is Dr. Norman Finkelstein.

This is a man whose parent's have been directly affected by the horrors of the Holocaust- both being the only to escape slaughter from each of their families- but who continues to maintain one of the loudest anti-Zionist voices in America and abroad. His distinctly strong views, rooted in a well-researched academic past, have gained notoriety among respected intellectuals, like Nom Chomsky. But hearing interview responses and speeches he's done, Dr. Finkelstein continues to assert he is not at all deserving of "being put on a pedestal"- anybody in his position should and would be doing the same. He's published a lot of work, including his controversial books The Holocaust Industry, and ‘This Time We Went Too Far’ – Truth & Consequences of the Gaza Invasion.

Although his resume boasts of impressive positions at top Ivy League schools, critics have claimed "he's not a teacher, he's a propagandist". People continue to harass him on a daily basis, going so far as to vandalize his property and relentlessly call for his eviction from his New York home. He's been banned from travelling to Israel for 10 years, infamously made a slew of different remarks in defense of Hezbollah, and travelled throughout Lebanon and the Occupied Territories on a speaking tour (any Jew reading this will understand the gravity of that gesture).

Next Wednesday, February 16, Dr. Norman Finkelstein will be making an appearance in Toronto at York University in an event called "Israel, Palestine and the Muslim World: Where are we headed?" You can click
right here to check out more info on this event, and some similar ones in other areas of the country.

Anyways, I continue to observe this fascinating man with a vigilence. His opposing sides are highlighted very well in the documentary "American Radical: The Trials of Norman Finkelstein".

HERE, is perhaps one of my favourite clips because I think its such an accurate portrayal of who this brilliant man is:

Scattered Thoughts about Egypt

Hours turned to days, then days now to weeks. I sat by watching, my mind eager to SNATCH any new breakthroughs or information. My energy went from being fully devoted to listening to the stories from the front lines, to feeling weary and almost wishing the entire situation would just end.

I've had trouble eating and sleeping, and have obsessively spent my time flipping between CNN and BBC, to getting live streams of Al Jazeera online. It borders on hysteria.

I've Youtubed the same videos over and over, marched with hundreds of Torontonians for 2 Saturdays in a row, and have relentlessly pounded my cousin with questions about what its REALLY like down there.
I've engaged in debates, explained what was happening to anybody who will listen, and brushed up on historical accounts of the power struggle that has ailed my country for decades.

I'm tired.
The other day, I scolded myself for feeling this way. I thought "What on earth gives YOU the right to feel weary and over-informed when these heroes are out there on the streets, determined to find an end that can satisfy them?!?"

But am I really wrong for needing a break from all this overexposure? Have I betrayed my country and fellow Egyptians every time I've given a half-assed answer to people's questions in order to avoid launching into a full conversation?
----

I'm at the point where I can look back at the full range of emotions and ideas I've had since January 25, and almost pinpoint the days when my attitude went from an excited, curious, hopeful observer, to a weary, almost paranoid bystander who got sucked into a dramatic scenario unwillingly.
I remember feeling, albeit selfishly, PROUD and EXCITED that my country was making headline news. For once in my 21 years in Toronto, people recognized the flag on my bag. For once, I could head downtown and find hundreds of other supporters of the Egyptian people, speaking my language, sharing my vision for the future of our homeland.
And I ate it right up. I stayed glued to CNN, collected any newspaper headlines (most, making front-page) about Egypt, and shared videos via my page.

It wasn't until the 5th or so day that I began questioning the over-saturated coverage. WHY was CNN (which has, in the process, became the manifested representation of Americans for me) so deliberately covering every nuance and detail of the unfolding "crisis" as they put it? WHY could I now pick up any newspaper, conservative or mainstream, and see the word "dictator" beside Hosni Mubarak's name?
I've always been a firm believer in a lot of conspiracy theories. But with the relentless, almost "Big-Brother"-like involvement of the US in everything that has transpired since the fateful day in January, I've taken an unhealthy approach to the apparent American conspiracy being played out in front of us.

How could people be sooo eager to listen to Obama's statements about Mubarak and the protestors, when Mubarak himself (the man at the centre of this drama) hadn't even made an attempt to comment. How could American diplomats and Israeli power-houses continue to taint the mainstream opinion- to demonize the protestors and insist that Mubarak is a pillar of stability in the region.
Could millions of people- some on the streets, some unable to go public with their feelings after experiencing a brutally repressive regime for decades- be wrong?
Are Egyptians, Arabs, Middle-Easterners- are they all too stupid to choose who they would like to represent their state? Is the right to self-determination reserved for Western countries whose political representatives are nothing but mere puppets of the same system?
Is it really a crime to demand that your country undergo a period of restoration?

I've absorbed CNN with an almost sadistic pleasure. I hate the way they make us look on TV. I resent the images of people fighting off men on horseback, burning pictures and flags- this is merely a snapshot of a situation that the rest of the world wants to dismiss as black-and-white, ignoring the multi-faceted colours emerging with every new image, testimony, story of a protestor's disappearance, or minute "change" in the government. These all help tell the story of a country, a people, torn between the lives they have come to know and the unpredictable, intimidating change that "threatens" to swoop in.
But I love seeing my country on there...

06 February 2011

Mother- Daughter date > O.C style!

So what if my guilty pleasure is junky "reality" TV shows? Is there something so wrong about tuning in to Jersey Shore ever week, soaking in The Real Housewives whenever I see it, or being glued to A & E for hours on end? Don't even let me get started about The Real World...
But this isn't really about my obsession with poorly-scripted TV shows masquerading as reality, but moreso about a specific episode I was watching.

Let me just start by saying, in no way do I take any of my moral cues from the cast of The Real Housewives: Orange County. If a snapshot could speak on the decline and decay of America on all fronts, the land where people literally over-consume till they die, it would probably be shot of these ladies (see picture).

But all that aside, while I was getting my weekly dose of O.C reruns in, I saw a moment in a particular episode that made me cringe.


In the episode, one of the characters (Lynn) goes on a "plastic surgery date" with her daughter- she to get (wait for this): a facelift, browlift and necklift, and her daughter to get a nose job. Did I mention the daughter just turned 18?
Its a little unnerving to see a mother encouraging and aiding her daughter in becoming obsessed with beauty ideals that are not real. And at such a young age? I'm sorry- whatever happened to mothers telling their daughters that they're perfect just the way they are? That stupid little imperfections make them the perfect versions of themselves? That rather than spending so much time and efforts on trying vainly to look flawless, they could be, like, I donno- saving the world or something?
I'm so happy to have been raised the way I was- millionaire spawn or not. At least I've been able to equip myself with ideals that are more true to me...


But what do Lynn and the rest of the cast think about encouraging your kids to be shallow and rely on surgery whenever something isn't perfect?
I guess Alexis put it best- she had unsuccessfully tried forcing her 2-year-old twin daughters to sit through manicures & pedicures.  She said "I think it's important to teach them about taking care of themselves."
Thats right, O.C Housewives, the real lessons of life lie in being able to keep up your physical appearance at all costs.
Now excuse me while I go get some ass implants....

04 February 2011

the CHRONICles: random shit

Ahh, the random things my stoned self stumbles on....


Who doesn't remember Chris Bale's infamous 2009 meltdown

Well, now you can sear the incident into your brain. After hearing this ridiculously stupid and catchy song (all "sung" by Bale, naturally), you can get mental flashes of the raging Batman...





Happy kush hour to you too...
And remember,
"I'm gonna f*@$in kick your f%#!in ass!!"

03 February 2011

Power is revealed only by striking true


“ Power is not revealed by striking hard or often, but by striking true.”
-       Honore de Balzac


I’ve been examining the whole situation (for lack of an adequate word) going on in Egypt with a bit of divided perspective. On the one hand, I feel the way I’ve felt since my 2010 visit- the moment I first saw a civil protest in Cairo’s main downtown square (ironically “Liberation Square”-Tahrir in Arabic). That I’d grown up largely listening to my father’s own memories of living in a repressed, paranoid military state probably led me to feel as awed and curious as I did when I saw the demonstration.
Here was a country in which anti-government opinion was strictly restricted from all media. A country filled with stories of police aggression- some made notorious (like the apparent brutal 2010 murder of blogger Khaled by Egyptian police), and some only whispered amongst terrified neighbours when nobody’s listening.
And these are just things my generation and I have been exposed to as the country’s 30-year “state of emergency” remains.

To fully understand the scope of today's Egypt would mean diving into my father’s memories, and those of the generations before him who lived to see numerous wars, an independence from the British, instability throughout the entire region, and a military revolution.
But that last point is one of the most fascinating, to me, and has been for as long as I remember.

Growing up I would listen, stunned, to my father nostalgically, and more importantly, proudly recount the story of how Colonel Nasser and some other important military figures overtook the British-led monarchy and installed their own Egyptian leaders. It was as if he, like every other Egyptian lucky enough to see that proud day, was directly involved in the cause of liberating their country. It wasn’t so much that they were living vicariously through Nasser and his comrades, but living alongside them- when they took over state radio to make the announcement, when they spent countless months planning and re-planning every step without leaving a paper trail, and when they paraded through the same Tahrir Sq. to, again, thousands of people…


Now I must make mention of the 2nd perspective I have, one almost diametrically opposed to the first, one grounded in pragmatism and an understanding that things are never as black-and-white as they seem.

 From the first reports taken of the protests, to the powerful images surfacing up everyday, the message has been the same- there is an unspoken and strong bond between the Egyptian people and the military. Maybe this is due to the fact that Egypt has a conscription law still in effect- essentially, every male must serve in the military. Thus, the military and the Egyptian citizens are synonymous. Or maybe it has something to do with the history of military operations in their country—indeed, the military leaders at one point created the Egyptian Egypt. That feeling of pride and identity, and knowing what it means to be an Egyptian- and not an Arab, North African, Middle Easterner, etc.- was reinforced by Nasser and the other decorated leaders. Whatever the case, the famous image of the old weeping Egyptian woman kissing the cheek of a young, uniformed Egyptian solider with piercing eyes, perfectly captures that soldier-civilian relationship. However disillusioned the people have become by their government’s strict system of security, they have found a way to embrace their soldiers wholeheartedly.

Which brings me to my main point. Much has been said about Egypt’s current president Hosni Mubarak- he’s a tyrant, a peaceful leader of the region, an incompetent president whose relied on American aid too often, a beacon of stability in the Middle East, a dictator (a label Western news outlets have avidly embraced for the first time), a wealthy, aged power-hungry lunatic, etc. But there hasn’t been much mention of Mubarak’s rise to power and his role in the 1952 Revolution.

Mubarak actually got his background in the military, graduating from the military academy and climbing the ranks to finally become Commander of Egypt's Air Force & Deputy Minister of Defense. In fact, he was rewarded and promoted for his outstanding services in the military during the Sixth of October War. With such noted roles in the military and an intense pilot training past, Mubarak's role in the 1952 Revolution cannot be undermined or ignored.

Maybe thats what continues to draw people like my father (he himself grew up in a military household and dreamed of being a soldier after witnessing the Egyptian Independence Movement) to the aged Mubarak. Ideas like loyalty, death before dishonour, and dying a hero are ones highly valued by people with close ties/sentiments to the military. And as I outlined before, Egyptians really have no choice but to feel this way towards their own soldiers.
That's is why its so difficult for me to maintain an agenda that is 100% compliant with the protestors. Maybe a bit of me relates to the sentiments my father has. Maybe as an Egyptian it's difficult for me to watch one of my own go through this public debacle. Like I said, the issue is grey at best- never black and white. Who will replace Mubarak? How will the USA continue to interfere in Egypt's domestic happenings? If Mubarak is the lesser of 2 evils (the other evil being the Muslim Brotherhood), how can we ask him to step down and instill one of our own? And finally, what about the transition? How will a new government be integrated? Will there be an interim government in the meantime, and if so who decides who that government is? The questions are endless.

However, an important thing separates me from my father and other Egyptian supporters of the regime. I grew up in Canada. This is a country known for promoting it's democratic ideals and a traditionally liberal, capitalistic agenda. We enjoy regular elections, political stability, and (almost always), a transparent government. I, like most other Canadians and even those Bush-electing Americans, can never imagine a system in which we were forced to sit by and watch a leader, who none of us seem to remember electing, continue being in power for 30 plus years. With all opposition prevented from having a voice, its not like an election would do the job anyway.
I can sympathize with those supporters because I know what they want: life, liberty and the freedom to pursue happiness. I know, because living in Canada, I am given those things without ever really facing the threat of losing them...

My sister got me one of those cool day-by-day calendars of Inspiring & Enlightening Quotes. Everyday I rip off a day to reveal some insightful-sometimes ideological, sometimes overly cheesy- advice/knowledge/ideas from different artists, theorists, writers, teachers, etc.
And on January 29, four days after the fateful demonstrations began, I ripped off another day to reveal the insight for that day. The quote was from French novelist Honore de Balzac, and came at such an appropriate time that I was compelled against all laziness to sit down and right this post:
 “ Power is not revealed by striking hard or often, but by striking true.”
And, as Hosni Mubarak has learned the hard way over this past week, his hard-struck, often-used power has essentially come to an end. Let's just pray and ensure that whatever future awaits my homeland, there will be eras of truth-revealing power.

Egypt: Nasser to Mubarak

Nasser speaks to a homeless man.
Mubarak meets with foreign diplomats




Nasser sits with Che Guevarra
Mubarak sits with Bush Jr.




Nasser is carried by soldiers & civilians
Thousands demand Mubarak step down.

02 February 2011

The Last Pharoah

"The Warrior-President Gamal Abd Al-Nasser, through his spirit, courage and creative thought, and through the dream of the greater Arab homeland, is not a memory, nor is he yesterday's cause. He is the present, today's cause, the cause of the shining Arab tomorrow, to which the Warrior-President Gamal Abd Al-Nasser devoted his whole life and died a martyr, as a pan-Arab nationalist and Egyptian patriot and as a Palestinian resistance fighter on the soil of struggle and confrontation against colonialism, both old and new; against the usurpation of Palestine and its colonization; and against division and fragmentation.
He is glory and dignity. The cause of the Warrior-President Gamal Abd-Al Nasser and his message and struggle is the cause of each and every Arab from the Atlantic Ocean to the Gulf, whether he be a ruler or an ordinary citizen, because the principles of Abd Al-Nasser are the principles on whose basis our Arab nation is rising up and taking its place in the sun.

The Warrior-President Gamal Abd Al-Nasser devoted his life to the glory of the Arab nation and its unity and dignity, and to expelling the forces of colonialism from all regions of the Arab homeland...[It is Abd Al-Nasser who proclaimed], 'Colonialism should now pick up its walking staff and leave,' 'from now on, there is no place for colonialists, occupiers, and invaders,' and 'this land is Arab, and no flag but that of the Arab nation shall ever fly above it.'

 The Warrior-President Gamal Abd Al-Nasser is alive in his nation and in Arab minds, and in the Arab hands that carry his message about Arab liberation, unity and progress. They will never abandon his principles and never lay down the banner that president Abd Al-Nasser raised - a banner that is a lighthouse shedding a bright light for the whole [Arab] nation... he is not a memory but the soul of the Arab nation....

...I say to you with confidence that the Warrior-President Gamal Abd Al-Nasser is with us in the trenches, with us under siege, with us in self-sacrifice [in battle]. [He is with us] with his thought and his manliness, creative spirit, and stature that neither bow nor retreat, no matter how difficult the struggle and how great the sacrifices...
We therefore have no path other than that of steadfastness and sacrifice for the sake of the homeland, the [Arab] nation, and the future. We salute the Warrior-President Gamal Abd Al-Nasser, the lantern shining before the nation and its [future] generations. The warrior Gamal Abd Al-Nasser - the president, the commander, the leader, the pioneer - is alive in our midst and in our [future] generations. He has not died and shall never die. Peace and God's mercy and blessings be upon you."


- Yasser Arafat
(delivering a euolgy on the 33rd anniversary of Nasser's death)

Out with the old, in with the NEW

I guess you probably noticed things are a little different around here.


Different theme, different colours, and a different header- yay!
Let's just say its time for a bit of an early spring cleaning. 
Consider this a fresh, crisp pair of undies on your romps... ahhh... smell that? that's fresh. :)


Anyway, maybe I got some 'splaining to do.
I cannot stress how much I appreciate blunt honesty and abhor white lies/people lying to protect my feelings. So when my friend and I randomly started discussing my blog and he told me it sucks, I could've bear-hugged him. His beef? That the "beautiful struggle theme" was kinda corny, and that my header (which featured a- and I quote- "CHEESY" photo of me smiling up at the sun) especially sucked. 


So, what did I do? Took that constructive criticism and had some fun with my header. That's right, FRIEND, I got rid of that cheesy picture to replace it with several more and some rookie graphics! HA!
Anyway, in the process of smoking a doobs and having fun with the collage tool, I decided to come up with a new name. And I kid you not, that shit came to me on the spot. 
Why "Journey of a Self"?
Because, as the good cliche goes, life is but a journey. We're basically thrown in front of an infinite number of windy, confusing, forked, scary, appealing paths and with every conscious and unconscious decision we make, we take a step on one of those paths. Thus, each one of us is "a self" on the "journey" of life.
What makes me any different?
I'm on this journey as a:
self-indulged 
eccentric 
lost 
female.


My worst critics and best supporters have always made a remark or too about how much I allow myself to indulge- in shopping, in food, in spending my time, IN LIFE. But what can I say? You try living with me for 21 years and tell me if you don't fall in love :)
(* NOTE: if anyone messages you protesting the often argued about use of the world "self-indulged", I will put a curse on you)


I'm eccentric and to try to explain or prove that to any of you would just be uncharacteristic of me. You either get it or you don't.


And finally (on the assumption that I need not explain the "female" part), I'm lost. But that's okay, I can admit it. Indeed, the only thing I am quite certain about is that I'm not sure about anything. That's why I'm still on that journey. And one day, I'll spot a metaphorical street sign, turn round its corner, and finally know that I've found my direction.


So cheers to all who follow and continue to read, and a big "hollaaa" at all the newbs. 
Hey, I never promised it would be the best ride of your life. I just told you I'd give you some quality writing in return for some of your time...

01 February 2011

Equal rights for all



"So let me get this straight. Larry King is on his 8th 
divorce, Elizabeth Taylor is possibly getting married for a 
9th time, Britney Spears had a 55 hour marriage, Jesse 
James and Tiger Woods, while married, were having sex 
with EVERYONE
yet the idea of same-sex marriage is going to destroy the 
institution of marriage? Really?? Re-post to your page if 
you agree. Equal rights for ALL!!!"